i always watch you from afar.
you are a star so out of reach, a rose i could only smell but can never pick.
like a mountain from a distance, you seemed within my grasps.
but when i get a closer look, i’m surprised to find that you’re so high and i couldn’t even lay a finger on you…
but still, i want you…
you know, my heart wishes for you to notice what it beats for, what it asks for but for us who live in entirely different worlds, it is truly impossible.
a love my soul demands, an emotion so strong it gives pain only you can relieve. if only you felt the same way as i do, if only you could care for me as much as i care for you, if only you could love me as strongly as i love you then the hollow in my soul and the emptiness i felt were never true. #

like ghost, it haunts me.
face myriad others reflect,
how will i forget?

thorn really draws blood
as petals lure to be picked
in time, you’ll be pricked.

he gave me roses,
red as wine with leaves so green
where thorns lay beneath.

grim ripper showed up.
my head detached; my heart stopped
my cheeks kissed the floor.

in between shorelines,
mind’s submerged in seawater
sinking, out of breath.

the locked drawer has no key
but a playful mind could have access
provided he’s determined.

with the winds playing,
leaves grooving to their rhythm,
sunlights are streaming.

bulbs flicked; eyes sparkled.
vein is found; alas a sign.
on its way’s a change.

i never really experienced what it feels like to be hugged or how good it is to pour out all your hatred and anguish to two very attentive ears. i let everything stacked up, piled up until my whole space just can’t contain all of them and eventually burst all over the place. my eyes would smarten up and the next thing i knew i was locked up inside the bathroom using bath time as an excuse to pour out all my tears and pain. i do it all on my own, never leaning on anyone and never giving someone a chance to peek in my thick, hard shell.
trust comes hard to a person who’d done something that made him aware about how distrusting humans could get. giving one an easy access to his weakened state is like destroying one’s kingdom. God bless those who could trust enough to be considered a good person.